03 12 / 2013
(Referring to previous post)
Or, she’s afraid and is wondering what’s happening.
In which case, don’t worry little one, those are just hiccups. They’ll be over soon.
03 12 / 2013
Little S in my tummy having hiccups for the first time. She must be puzzled by them, because she moves after every few hiccups or so. Haha
21 11 / 2013
Feeling you rolling around in my tummy is one of the best things in the world.
Just not too hard on the kicks, okay? Haha.
21 11 / 2013
18 11 / 2013
My dear child,
Today you were very disappointed about something you wanted so very much to go your way, but didn’t.
I could’ve done everything I could to make sure you got what you wanted.
You came to me, shoulders heaving, barely able to tell me between sobs that you did your best but still fell short.
It broke my heart to see you cry, but I felt you needed to learn that things don’t always go the way we want them.
I knew this day would come, and I tried to delay it as long as I could. But I wouldn’t be a good mother if I didn’t let you experience how it is to fail and to know how to pick yourself up.
I didn’t offer any consolation prizes; no feel-good ice cream or let-me-see-what-I-can-do. This is because in life, we don’t get any.
What I gave you instead was my full attention, a hug, and words of encouragement. Because I want you to know that when something like this happens again, I will be here for you.
A safe place of sorts.
I am your mother and it’s my job to make you feel you are capable of dealing with disappointment.
Thus, I will allow you to fail, because I love you that much.
But it doesn’t mean it won’t break my heart again.
13 11 / 2013
Last night I asked my 4-year old what she wanted to donate to the victims of the typhoon. We already had a long talk about the fact that a lot of people lost everything they had.
She thought for a moment and said she wanted to give a certain dress. She started describing it to me, but I couldn’t remember which one it was.
She then left me to get it.
She came back with a loud “this one, Mama!” I looked up and was very surprised to see that it was her favorite dress. She loved that dress so much that she didn’t want to let her younger sister have it just yet, even when it was starting to be a little too small for her.
I was speechless. I felt bad because I only donated things I did not need, while my daughter wanted to donate something precious to her.
11 11 / 2013
My heart hurts.
I hurt for the people who watched as their whole lives were swept away by (arguably) the most destructive typhoon our country has seen in recent history.
I hurt for children who lost their parents, parents who lost their children, for everyone who lost a loved one.
I hurt for those in immense helplessness, in fear of the future, in despair.
My heart goes out to those whose lives were lost, and those they left behind.
It could’ve happened here. It could have been you or me, yours or mine.
Helping as best I could. Praying in earnest.
09 11 / 2013
07 11 / 2013
Just so you know, Little S, you are a wonderful blessing to us and we love you.
03 11 / 2013